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your so called friend messed up one more time, it never seems to end as he says he wont be coming home. from what i've found to what i've felt i know you were right which doesn't make it any easier to understand. this person i've become, this person turning on them. your so called life and all of its joy you took it all and made fools gold. i felt for a second that something could be real i felt expectation now im being let down. i should know better with the way it all turns out. not for the better but for the seasonal end result. i should have told you something that was a lie. i should have said nothing but i was drunk at the time. now there is a body that cant make its way back ashore. a christmas celebration thats left without cheer. you said you tried but thats just not good enough. now im sorry but i want to crash this place, i appoligise for having such a blank expressionless face. they said i was a lovely person, we'd only met once or twice. im not a lovely person they all worry when im caught not smiling. the world is ending in march. sitting back and watching on the television as hugry men play their games. live to air confessions with no remorse. alex singing with tears wanting to perform in my dried eyes. she said i was welcome i want to feel sure. i said i'd be there with a mop of red hair.